Change

Lately, I feel like my world is widely spinning out of control and I just can't keep up. At least not the way I would like to. I'm a creature of habit and change can sometimes throw me for a loop. I would like to say that I can easily adapt to new situations, but that wouldn't be entirely true. So, here I am venting my "change" frustrations to "the blog." I'm not sure "the blog" even cares, but it always feel good to put some things down on paper even if it is "cyber" paper. It makes me feel like I have some control.

Last week my good friend and her family completed this crazy process of becoming a doctor and they moved...across the country! I am sad. I miss her. Katie misses her children terribly. She keeps asking when we will move to Minnesota so she can play with them. I think of all the people who have come in and out of my life and miss them. Some we have kept in touch with and others not as I would have liked. I have come to the realization that we are truely on the downhill run of this whole residency world. Which also means no one will be telling us where to go for the next 4-5 years. We actually have to pick and agree on somewhere to live. It also means I will have to say goodbye to friends and start all over again! Not so fun. Although it is still 2 years away I know it will come quickly and so I want to make the best of the time I have here.

Katie has decided to spread her wings a little too wide lately. She has grown by leaps and bounds in the last few months. She is becoming more of a person which is awesome, but at the same time I apparently am not as smart as I was 2 months ago. Darn it!!! So needless to say if anyone has new discipline tactics for extremely stubborn 4 1/2 year old please share.

Joey is growing like a weed and talking and talking. This week has brought the beginning stages of tantrums. He is on his way to earning his own time out chair. Fun for us!

And, I have been spoiled the last few months with Todd's schedule. The last few weeks he has been here less in the evenings and is more tired than he's been in a while. Makes it a little hard for some good conversation in the evenings. We did have an awesome date a few weekends ago and it was awesome. Dinner without children is so relaxing and tastes so much better. We talked for hours about everything. I was reminded how much I love him. But, at the same time, it reminds me how much I miss him awake, pager-less and totally mine.

Then there's the whole photography business. To start or not to start a full blown business. There are days when I am absolutely sure it's what I want and love and then there are days where I am content with it the way it is. I suppose its all in how I decide to run it, but if I commit I commit full force. And, do I really have the time it deserves. I don't want to be spread too thin and I'm already walking a fine line right now.

Finally, the time has come to sell my car. The car with several dramatic breakups, college woes, a marriage, three cross country moves, two babies and a whole lot more. We have been through a lot together. It's hard to think about her not being in the driveway. She's like my comfort blanket. She's been good to me. So, if any of your would like to buy her let me know. She deserves a good home.

So, here's to change and the hope than I can survive and enjoy it all.